To Hell And Back
- How Could You Be A Loving God And Hell Exist?
Coming To Peace With (child) Abuse
- Dream about vampires.
- Epstein Files
- Why Would You Let This Happen?
On your journey of faith in Christ you will eventually stumble on questions that take you off-road.
Into alleyways where many completely lose track of the main road.
They will linger in your soul and take more and more mental space like narcissists crossing personal boundaries.
In a manner that is calculated, disruptive and ferociously perseverant.
They simply sit there in the back of your mind, legs crossed, dormant. Nothing similar to a computer, idling with no real intention unless the user prompts is, but rather volcano-like.
Occasionally erupting with bursts of difficult-to-restrain emotions and even more fiery, faith-shaking, questions that burn on your heart.
- How could you be a righteous God? Don’t you see all the suffering happening?
- You’re omniscient aren’t you? Why allow these wicked people to get away with their deeds?
- God of love? Yet hell exists? Explain that?
- Why would you create hell? FOR PEOPLE TO GET TORTURED FOR ENTERNITY?
- ETENRAL DAMNATION IN BURNING FIRE? How could You call yourself compassionate?????
- THERE’S CHILDREN BEING RAPED? HELLO??? WHY AREN’T YOU STOPPING IT???
- YOU’RE ALL POWERFUL ARE YOU NOT???
I think I’m not special in this regard.
But, perhaps unlike most, I don’t do well with keeping conflicts in my heart.
I need to feel a sense of alignment in my heart and choices.
How can I tell people, sometimes with tears behind my eyes, that I serve a loving God with a huge heart and yet I quietly wrestle with these kinds of questions?
Those who know me personally would tell you, I can’t be a fraud.
I despise the idea of deceit and stay far far away from it’s tempting calling.
As time tick-tocked away, I’ve come to peace with most of these questions
But it hasn’t been easy..
It’s taken a fair bit of research and discussions with God for me to have the answers I feel satisfied with.
Is it only a matter of being satisfied?
No. It’s a matter of finding the truth.
And luckily for me, and also, hopefully, for you, the truth has turned out satisfactory to my heart.
So here are my answers to faith’s toughest questions.
These won’t be your cookie-cutter 1 sentence responses to complicated question.
We will run these rabbit-holes down to their logical ends.
What we seek is understanding after all, not merely, sneakily reluctant, blind acceptance.
So we might as well start with the toughest one of them all.
The toughest one to me at least as I’ve shed more tears about this one than all the others.
Hell.. no. Child abuse.
